ORL'S Online Diary

My Online Diary

Date: June 3, 2012

Time: 7:17 AM

Dear Diary,

     I was crying last night, thinking of someone that is near to my heart. I was actually asking God, why he needs to fact all of this trials. I was crying because, I really wanted to help him (My Bestfriend) in such a way that I can do to help him. I know that He's strong but I know also that his still a human. I don't know why these things happened to him, but as I can see to my best, he is happy and he is contented with his life, of course, I know also that he really want to reach all of his dream. Diary, through him, I was really inspired and really eager to do all of my plans. Best Sundie, is the one who makes my mission seems to be clearer and clearer every moment that I spend my time to him. 

   Diary, I admit I feel little afraid now. Afraid in such a way that he will find a new friends, or a new bestfriend that is better than me. I'm afraid that eventually, he will forget all the things that we've done through the times that we spend together, laughing and sharing problems. But I know that He will always stay in my mind and memories forever. Well, I think, this is all for now, hopefully, he will be successful someday and continue his dreams. Good luck to you my Best :')

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 4, 2012

Time: 7:18 AM

Dear Diary,

    This is the first day of school, everyone are busy except for me, because I already graduated don't know how will I react again with this new changes in my life. All of my friends, including my bestfriend are all opt into school. I can't understand the feeling of being lonely at the same time being bored. But I know God have some plans why these things happened. But I would like to thank God, for giving me another day to live, reading the messages of my friends (Harold and Bespren Sundie) you could actually feel that it's already school time. Well, I just hope that they will do all good in school and hopefully also, Bespren Sundie will take handle the responsibility of being a SSG President, and I'm praying that God will always guide him and help him to take all of his plans.

   So far, I could really see this day as something new and yet something challenging in my part, continue with the online work, and continue to live in a life that I used to live for a very long time.

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 4, 2012

Time: 9:20 PM

Dear Diary,

  Dili sa ko mag english karon kay kapoy naman, hahahaha. Well, Diary, wala ko kabalo nganung mas affected ko sakong bestfriend rather than sa akong uban friends and family. Before, daghan kaayo mi og plano, daghan kaayo mi og gusto adtoan, gusto ma try og gusto makita. To be honest, I really dont know nganung nagbestfriend mi, kasabot man ko nga busy siya, pero nganung after that time, sa akong nahinumduman it was May 13,2012 nilahi ang tanan. Nilahi na iyang pagtagad, og naglahi na iyang tinextsan, dili ko gusto nga makabalo siya sa akong gakafeel karon og sauna kay basin mag-ana siya "o.a naman kaayo ni akong bespren" gakahadlok pud ko nga kung makabalo siya, mas dili na siya ganahan magtagad sa akoa. Tagna-an ko palagi, mao jud ni akong ginkahadlokan, nga muabot ang time nga malimtan nako niya og malimtan niya ang among na agian. Sakit kaayo sa akong part kay na anad ko nga pirmi siya sa akong kilid, og pirmi mi gatext2 pero karon, lahi najud ang tanan. Kung magtext siya, it seems nga gakapugos siya, ginatry nako nga magreply bahalag mangawat ko og kwarta, (ulaw pero tinood, hehehe) oo para lang ma unli, pero murag wala. Dili ko gusto mangwenta og dili pud nako na batasan, I dont care kung daghan ma mis interpret ni akong ginasulat karon, basta ang gusto lang nako mahibal-an sa uban, wala nay mas importante pa except sa akong family, ang akong bestfriend. Siya ra ang nakabalo sa tanan, siya ra ang akong gina adtoan, siya ra ang akong nahilakan, siya ra ang akong nashare sa mga dreams, siya ra ang akong nailhan nga nagopen sa tanan niyang na-agian og lastly, siya ra ang tawo nga giignan ko nga "proud kaayo ko nga nabestfriend taka, best". So thankful and so happy, 15 siya, 21 nako, pero it seems nga parehas rami og edad, wala ko kabalo nga sa 15 years old nako makita ang akong kaugalingon. 

  Diary, wala ko ga expect nga mabasahan ni niya, and usa pud sa rason nganung diri nako mismo  gisulat is because maulaw ko nga mabasahan ni niya. Dili ko parehas sa uban nga maisulti ang tanan atubangan sa tawo nga gusto niyang estoryahon. Busa diri nalang nako gibutang tanan. Og sa tanan nga masaag og sa tanang tawo nga makabasa ani, aya mo og kahadlok og labaw sa tanan, ayaw jud nimu ikaulaw inyung mga bestfriend. Bestfriend gani nimu siya nga gituring kay isa siya sa mga tawo nga nakaila og nakabalo sa imung batasan. Kung wala na imung pamilya, ang bestfriend and pwedi nimu maadtoan or mahilakan, maparehas man nimu ang gender or dili, kay sa akong case karon, parehas mi lalaki pero wala ko gamind ana. And besides, sa kadaghan nako nga friends, puro lalaki rajud akong mga bestfriends kay lalaki raman pud ang makasabot sa kapwa lalaki. Siguro ako na naisulat ang akong gusto isulat kaorng gabie. Salamat kay Lord kay nahuman nako ang akong trabahoon og nakasulat ko karon. And sa tanan makabasa ani, salamat sa time, og kay best, I will be here for you, no matter what happen,  just call me and I'll be there. 

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 5, 2012

Time: 3:52 PM

Dear Diary,

   Another tiring and boring day for me. Wala diri nakaadto si Harold, it seems nga wala ko nakakatawa this day, awh naa d i, sa mga GM ni Harold, diha jud ko nagkatawaha, hahaha Thanks to him. Well, Eventhough sayo pakaayo ko nag sulat karon, gusto lang nako ipagawas napud akong gibati, hahahaa. Diary, while looking at those pictures, katong nag picture2x ming Harold, nakarealize ko, what if si Best Sundie to akong kauban? What if si Best to ang akong kasmile didto? Lingaw kaha ko? Siyempre oo kaayo! Dili nako ginaingon nga dili ko ganahan kang Harold, ako lang nahunahunaan, hehehehe. Si Harold man gud, he do the things that i never expected, makaktawa ko sa iyang ginapangbuhat, gusto pud biya nako mabestfriend si Harold but for now, I'm not still convinced, naay pagduha2 pero gamay nalang kaayo, if this doubt will be gone, promise, i will tell him everything, but for now dili lang sah. 

 Happy pud ko karon kay naa koy nakachat sa skype about sa akong bestfriend. Gakabother man gud ko kay for the first time, miss kaayo nako akong bestfriend sa kadaghan nga bestfriend nga nag-agi sa akoa, siya rapud ang akong bestfriend nga kung dili makatext, magworry dayon ko. Well, according sa akong naestorya, normal raman daw kay siya pud daw. Then aaminin ko dito, gaselos ko kung makabalo ko nga naay  new friends akong best, siguro selfish rakaayo ko, mao gani ginatago lang nako kay para dili ko ignon nag "OA". Pero unta, okay lang ang akong mga friends, most especially sa akong bestfriend og unta ginpabilib na nila ilang maestra karon. hahaha, Mingaw japon akong feeling pero gaka-anam na nako og adjust, so far, maka get over rajud ko. HEHEHE

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 6, 2012

Time: 8:53 PM

Dear Diary,

  3rd day of school na ang akong mga barkada, kami nalang tawon ni Harold ang gabonding2x ani but okay lang pud kay alogon pud ni si Harold. Pero behind the smile that I showed to him as well to my family, i'm still looking at my best. Diba, lahi rajud biya ang bestfriend, pero i understand nga gskwela siya and kinahanglan ni niya para sa iyang future. Ang akong ginabuhat nlang karon is to pray for him and to support him all the way. Nagpaunli ko basin makatext siya but sad to say wala, pero okay lang, at least gaka leave ko og message sa iyang inbox. Hope dil siya masamokang sa akong mga message. 

 For now, kani lang sa ang akong maka esulti but I'm still hoping nga magkita og magkastorya napud mi and I just want nga mag long last and mag lalom pajud ang among friendship ni Harold. Hehehehe. 

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 8, 2012

Time: 9:20 PM

Dear Diary,

   I feel happy and sad today, happy because Harold is still here to make me feel happy, salamat kaayo kay Harold, then happy pud kay nagtext2x mi ni Jenny. Well, sad pud kay I feel so empty karon and I feel nga alone kaayo ko, kung kanus-a nagkinahanglan ko og bestfriend, wala jud bisan isa nakatext, si Harold ra tawon akong nakatext pero it seems nga dili nako matell ang tanan. To be honest, everytime nga mag-adto diri si Harold sa balay, si Bespren ang akong pirmi mahinumduman, gusto nako nga maaccept na si Harold and considered to be one of best but I can't do it, and God knows why. Pero I hope nga one day ma open na nako ang tanan kang Harold and hopefully madungagan akong mga best dili makuhaan. Busy silang tanan, wala nay nabilin para mapakatawa ang adlaw pero salamat kay naa japon nabilin bisan isa. 

  Wala ko ka diary kagahapon kay nakalimot ko but I will do my best nga pirmi jud ko makasulat diri and hopefully also nga dili makapuyan og adto si Harold diri og maglingaw2 mi pirmi. Si harold ang present pero si Best ang akong ginpangita, siguro unfair sa part ni Harold pero ginatry nako ang akong best nga makita na nako si Harold nga siya og kabalo ko nga hait najud na mahitabo, hapit na.

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 9, 2010

Time: 10:13 PM

Dear Diary,

     Wow, I think this is one of the great day so far, why? Because I saw my bestfriend again, he wanted me to help him. I dont know but I feel happy, mas happy because Harold is here again, diri napud siya matolog and we will watch something that we both like ( sorry dili pdi istorys kay SPG, LOL) and I hope nga nakauli pud to silang best nga happy and safe. I don't know if maconsider paba nako ni nga great and wonderful day pero for sure, I was really happy nga nakita siya. 

 For now, kani lang sa akong isulat and salamat pud kay naa koy nasulat karon. God bless to my best and God bless to my barkadas. .Good night napud. .

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 11, 2012

Time: 3:25 PM

Dear Diary, 

  I don't know how will I explain my feelings towards my friends. Last night, when Harold text me about his problem regarding with his aunt, where he was sleeping. I was actually touch and wanted to help him. I feel so sorry to him and I want to be with him so that he can express his feelings and the pain that he feels inside. I want to help him to release all of hid doubts and all of his wondering. Siguro, this is my role, this is my mission, to help the people and to give some inspiring message to them, to give a strength with the use of the words that I throw to them. Wala ko kabalo nganu, but I feel that I'm weak, this is it! I'm very much sure now that my greatest weakness are my friends. Well, although that was the things happened yesterday, I feel happy also because I already saw my bestfriend. Pero murag ala japon me nagkita, lahi naman gud kaayo ang tinagdan og lahi napud kaayo siya. Sauna, when I share something, dili ko awkwardan, I mean masulti nako tanan nga wala bitaw hesitations pero kagahapon, nakita jud nako nga lahi najud tanan. Wala ko kabalo kung unsa ang akong nabuhat or unsa ang akong naistory sa yaha, pero ginatry nako ang akong best para dili mawala amung connection as bestfriend. 

 Just hope nga okay lang silang tanan, and just hoping nga maayo napud ning hubag sa akong nawong, mura naman gud ko og baki, ,hahahaha, pero okay lang kay cute raman japon Joke. Pero sa tanan nga gakahitabo sa kinabuhi sa akong mga friends. I will always and forever support them. Because the victory of one will be the victory of all and I just hope that they can find the happiness that they are looking for. I'm just here for them and just here to give the best that I can because my life will be not just like this if I dont have a friend just like them. Hooooo! another hot day but worth it. .

Your's truly,

Orlan :')

Date: June 14, 2012

Time: 2:42 PM

Dear Diary,

  It's been a while since i wrote here, but for now, I'm really stress and all I want to say is I REALLY MISS MY BESTFRIEND :'(

Date: June 25, 2012
Time: 7:37 AM

Dear diary,
 I thought everything will be okay now, i thought i can rid out of this emptiness and i thought i can rid out thinking of my bestfriend. Hooo! i know he's happy, ,i know it. .God Bless nalang best and take care always, I miss our bonding and our naughtiness. .Miss you :'(

Your's truly,

Orlan